It’s official. I’m a working mom.
I’m now in my second week being back at work after a totally relaxing and luxurious maternity leave. Ha! I say that sarcastically because I have seen the light: stay-at-home moms have the toughest job on the planet, as cliche as it may sound. It’s true! There is nothing more challenging than caring for the needs of your child(ren) all. day. long. It’s frustrating to not even pee without peering over the toilet and into the bedroom where your baby lays wailing in the bouncer. And it’s a bit depressing to not leave the house because your first-class sweatsuit (and somehow your ponytail) is covered in spit up and you don’t have the energy to change clothes. Even so, I find myself longing to join the ranks of the SAHM. Toward the end of my maternity leave–when I was beginning to feel like a real, live SAHM–Little Man and I found a nice routine. We were venturing out of the house together, having all kinds of conversations, and he was on the brinks of showing me his colorful little personality. When it came time to return to work, I was surprisingly disappointed. Don’t get me wrong. I love working. I’m a careerist at heart. But, when Jake hit the scene, I suddenly realized that my career was a little less important than I thought it was.
My return to society has been really fabulous, though. My co-workers have been encouraging, and Jake and I are figuring out a new routine that is working very well. I don’t spend my days pining for my baby, and I really enjoy wearing clothes with buttons again. But, Ricky and I have a whole new vision for our family, and in the coming years, it doesn’t involve me working a 9 to 5er. In the meantime, I’ll enjoy the precious little time we have together as a family, and I’ll trust God to help us make the right decisions as we prepare for my eventual return to the difficult, messy, and wonderful world of spit up and ponytails.